A Mother's Notes

Its a beautiful day today and I just finished a nice 5K and witnessed a wonderful sun rise!
I come back and look at my son..what an angel he looks like..

I just lie beside him and watch him sleep...he must be dreaming of some cars or spider man..
I gently touch him and he grabs my hand and goes back to deeper sleep!
What a sense of complete trust this child has on me!

I watch him and wait for him to open his eyes and give me his first smile of the day!!
and right there, I realize , that I just have it all in life!
Just lying down there and waiting for him to wake up!
What a moment of peace!!

I had looked for this peace all my life! I started by thinking it will come when I graduate..
or when I get that dream job or when I find the man of my life!!
Each time I reached the goal post..peace still seemed far away!

And when this child came into my life, I had completely dreaded him! Dreaded the sleepless nights and never ending diapers

But today as I watch him..it dawns on me,that this is indeed the moment I had been longing for ,
He has effortlessly transformed me!
From a "I ME MYSELF" thing to simply everything else except "I ME MYSELF..."
I would give up everything I have in life, just to keep him happy and peaceful for ever!

This moment seems to complete me! Wish I could cling to it for Eternity!

No More

No more paths to tread,
No more places to be,
No more skies to fly,
No more shores to seek.

No more needs to meet,
No more thirst to quench.
No more pleasures to seek,
No more aches to heal

No more goals to work,
No more races to win.
No more egoes to please,
No more battles to survive.

No more love to share,
No more hatred to bear,
No more future to dream,
No more past to forget.

No more hearts to break,
No more friends to make,
No more strangers to seek,
No more enemies to hate.

Now, is the time for NO MORE.
Today,Life looks more fleeting than ever.
As One more sun rises, One more sun sets,
All that remains is an entity called me,
An unanswered question,
And that familiar all pervading Alone-ness.